the aftermath of the whirlwind that you are

in the wake of the loss of memories in words

all that is left

is the scent of your aftermath.

my fingers lead me through the creases, down the sheets, through your hair

my mind stolidly churns out the many running mares

a light bulb, dangling and swaying

casting uncertain shadows on waiting walls

a brief breeze of a temporary laugh

of contented sighs

my secret carousel of emotions

its colours and music only mine to keep

sugar-coated whispers

sweetness meant to fall away

never meant to stay

yet i'm whisked away to the

playground of your words

of skin

of hushed voices

where was my guard when i need it up

oh how i allow my feet to wander down the paths of intrigue and curiousity

and oh how they fail me sometimes.

this is where i wonder

why no one else would do

why i only could have

the wants for you

it makes me ponder

such a rush

and single lip stain

a single touch

much i've learnt

Sometimes, it's not about losing.... but it's in the realization that, explaining to a someone who is set in their own ways with no urge of learning and becoming better, is a waste of effort.

they will choose to never understand.

they will choose to defend what they think they know

they will choose to exert faux-intellect.

and i'm learning to save my breath and effort for people who are worth the time.

most of the time, i only say because i care :) and if i stop :) it's quite easy to tell why.

it's not about the losing...it's about walking away from the boxing ring gracefully while the "opponent" is busy punching himself in the face :)

level

i feel i have brought caring to a whole new level : the stupid level

tip toe into my thoughts

we have been strangers

we were real

we've kissed from across the street

we've spoken in more than words

covered in more than clothes

we've fought nameless battles

you made timeless promises

they sometimes come true

sometimes fall through

they have lingered

longer than they should

these hands

while they sooth

you never seem to fall asleep

you never seem to fall

never with your heart

never in your soul

a coat of wants

no t-shirt of needs

you crash even louder

un-carpeted by greed

the hunger for more

but never something more

the carousel of ecstasy

never stopping on your turn

only you know

you get what you want

only you know reasons for your wants

the reasons you taunt

the reasons you tempt

the reasons you stop mid-hand

I've faltered with my share

I've overdone the care

followed through hesitantly

when wants pour in when it's too late

weather or not

where is my ghost?

the one i've followed the most

the one i've cried for

the one who has cried more

every little boy has dreamed

of being a super hero

saving the world

getting the girl

i've dreamed of looking pretty

in a flouncy dress

but i digress

i've turned to books

i just gave you the hook

we've had the dreamers

we've had their dreams

we've seen the nightingales

we've heard them sing

gather your capes

let's meet on the hill

let's free fall into the sky

let them fire at will

let's command the army

to charge, march, attack

save the damsels and the princes

from their dragons and their feasts

so let the blood spill

and it will be alright

for it's the right time

it's the right kind

and it will be the right one

for the right thing

and it will be yours

it will be found.

so you welcome yourself

to the tea party

to the tasks

to the war

so welcome

random things parents say #492

My Dad & I protested when my mom started feeding Poodie, our dog, muffin crumbs.

Mom: What? Even dogs eat crumbs that fall from the master's table!

Me : Fall, ma...fall...

Mom: Then we shall MAKE IT FALL....*continues feeding Poodie with crumbs from her hand*

Dad & I- speechless....

random animal pictures with protesting babies

sometimes #29393

sometimes God likes to remind us to not get comfortable. and also not to worry. He's got everything under control.we just might not like the bumpy ride.

random #585858

wisdom is....

...... knowing when to shut up...

i think i'm getting the hang of it :)