peace

I'm glad you came to a decision. and I understand and am ok with the outcome. i'm glad you decided to do the right thing.

i allowed myself to get hurt expecting something i should have known better about. my intentions did not match up with my actions and that wasn't right. i should have put my foot down from the start. but now at least i'm honest with myself. after years of moulding myself into someone else to make others happy, i've learnt that it's never the best thing to want to change someone into someone else just to make yourself happy and satisfied.

from what i've observed, it's about accepting flaws and emphasizing the good points. if we change, we change for ourselves without losing the essence of who we are. love him,love ALL of him. if we change, we change to be a better person. as perfectly made as we are, there's always room for improvement. we should decide for ourselves in the end, after considering input from others. different people have different priorities when it comes to relationships. Personally, i look for trust and commitment, acceptance and unconditional love. a relationship is an US thing, not a ME thing or a YOU thing. so it should be about making US happy,not just ME or YOU.

i'm still trying,i've got a long long way to go, but it's never to late to start. all in all, as much as this is just my personal opinion, if possible look towards the Godly opinions. He knows whats best and He would want us to focus on important parts of a relationship. it's never about the physical aspect and should never be based on that for any reason whatsoever.

it doesn't pay to be bitter. as much as i wanted things to work out or go a certain way, i have to live with the circumstances and accept that people will be insincere and hurtful.

and because i care for you, i'm happy you found someone new.

there's a certain peace despite the heartache and disappointment.that's good.