tetris part 2

Somehow, recently, things fall into place....tiny pieces,but still pieces.
Was just talking to a friend about fear and how nonsensical it is to fear worldly things and POOF! guess what was today's sermon about? :D
Then during sermon itself, I had a sudden craving for Chatime...guess what the bro brought over for lunch? :D:D


there was something else but for the life of me i cannot recall.
anyhoo, NEW BOOKS! GOODNESS! GREAT EXCITES!!!!

Big Bad Wolf: Sissie's stash

Big Bad Wolf : My Mini Stash

Sister's Bookalicious Stash

My mini bookalicious stash.

So completed sets are :

The Luxe novels

Aprilynne Pike's Wings (Finally! after reading the seocnd book only)

The Wolves Chronicles (i think they're called that?)

Also Scott Westerfeld's new one :D

yayness...

So much to look forward to :D

Spent the weekend with my bigger younger sister :D yayness tooo!

everyone's going somewhere
i'm not there yet
but i'll get there, i'll get there

is it odd that i like things in its entirety?

dreams #456

it was a competition, to come out with an outfit according to the theme.the theme was feminine,spring. i was helping the girls, using ideas and design from my sketch book.i dressed everyone up and they went out to the dining table.only i wasn't ready.i even helped the guys this year.this is probably the only season that a contestant dressed up the entire team because the decided not to use a stylist. and i had dressed up every single one of them throughout the competition.now i was left with no time, no shoes. so i couldn't sew the design i wanted. i wanted to wear this jumpsuit that had pastel pink lace top and black shorts, but my shoes were in the car. and i needed something i could go barefoot with, so there was this other white cotton dress and a blue halter.i barely remember what i chose.

i remember giving them the other designs because they were taller than i was and it definitely looked better on them

at the dinner table, a guy had all the bitter gourd so i asked for some.uncle hock wanted the water melons that tasted thick and rough.so i gave it all to him. the hall was dark and gloomy and the stage was carpeted. a deep red.

Outside were the fans with boards and reporters with cameras.also security to hold them back.

that was all i remember.i woke up mulling over which dress i could wear.

counting blessings #995

so it's been good, not sweating the small stuff.finishing up books. having positive conversations with people who  try to bring out the best in you. after all this time, i don't know why i chose to go through so much difficulty. but it's all good i guess. if it doesn't kill you....

honestly, happiness wasn't that difficult to find.isn't. it's always there.it's in appreciating having your family around. in having a roof over your head, a room despite the pollution and heat. it's in being able to have dogs who love you and family members that could never dream of hurting animals (besides pests D:) it's in knowing you have friends who stick with you no matter what. Surrounding yourself with good things.

Sometimes i do believe i become such a horrid person and at first i don't know why.but which much thought, i guess it's my body's mechanism in pushing them away from me. to make them feel i'm not worth keeping in touch with or talking to. sometimes, it's good for them. it's good for them to stay away from me and with the way i act it gives them a darn good reason to. i don't like it being that way though, but it has to be what it has to be. you want them to be happy and everyone knows that their happy cannot be anywhere near you. and that's when i have to let go. let go of the heavy thoughts, the trying so hard to save the world, to make everyone else happy. it's not my job (even though i want it to be :( ) it still takes time for the fact to sink in. the fact that i don't HAVE to make everyone happy. It's good to WANT them to be happy but it's not my job to MAKE them so. it's a little bit painful (because i don't want to admit it's a lot) and there are people who are worn out from trying to drill it into my brain. (fear not! your incessant drilling has finally breached the walls of my cranium) so there it is! :) being happy with what is.... not what ifs or what has'. And also to do away with the people who drag your what has' into the what is :)

i lacked the balance before, always only able to do one thing and one thing only, but really, making (and KEEPING) my self happy is just as important as everyone else's happiness. and i have to remember to do that.   Also, sometimes i have to forget what everyone thinks, and remember what HE thinks of me and let that reflect the way i think of myself. That is important. Serve God, not men. why do we look to men for approval when there's only one person's opinion that matters the most? :)

if i'm ever down, i know i'll be back up and swinging soon enough :)

Book stuff #9595

SO i finally finished the 'Hunger Games' trilogy and kind of ran out of things to read, so i ransacked my sister's shelves and decided on a few books and this being one of it :

Not much spoilers, but it's one of those book I feel i have a personal connection to. I haven't quite finished it yet (soon!) but it makes a whole lot of sense to me. I'm one of those people who lose things that never seem to resurface, and it would be nice to know that there was a place it finally decided to settle in. It's odd,yet makes so much sense. It's a good read, especially for those who have lost hope after losing something :) 

Edit:

Just finished it. Not all of us are lucky enough to come back from where we are lost :( 

superficial a lil #3838

i realise, out of the many things i have in my wardrobe, i do not have these :

i know, i know it's just shorts, but these babies look amazing with almost anything!

For example, semi- formal :

A plain blazer, a top (bustier in this case) ans some fancy heels. tadahh!! of course, keeping the colours rich and deep does help make the ensemble  classier.

then a slouchy tank and some funky footwear with simple chains, should just about pull off the casual, i'm-up-for-anything vibe.

bold, block bangles, teamed with a structured, patterned top and floral flats gives off a preppy chic aura.

Casual much? just throw on your favourite t shirt and sandals and you're done!

go girly girly in a frilly pink top, a kitschy purse and summery espadrilles.

and last but not least

the combo of a feminine top and a leather jacket and booties. A combination of two individual looks.

All yu need is only one pair actually, depending which looks you prefer to lean towards.

I'd personally want a dark denim pair because i  feel it's the most versatile, but everyone's going to think differently.

Till i get my own pair....i'll just dream on...