i smiled

thank you for your effort in trying to get me to smile.

i admit i wasn't in the best of moods.

but you still tried.

thank you.

thank you for trying to understand,

you still don't get it

but i guess that's ohkay for now.

even though tears came in between,

i did smile.

thank you.

some days

there are just some days you can't even fake it with emoticons

you made

you made me cry just to hear a sorry that's not due to you

Christmas Resolutions

So what I'm trying to do for the coming year :

1. NO SWEARING

- no sh*ts....at all...done it before...i'll do it again

- definitely keeping away from all other four lettered explicits.whether in private or public

2. BE NICE

-try my best to not be...UN-nice... to everyone.whether they're nice to me or not. ESPECIALLY when they're not.

3. DO THE RIGHT THING

- do what is best for the situation, not whether it benefits one party more than the other

- be the bigger person, don't have to insist on being right all the time.

4.BE MORE LADYLIKE

-behave more feminine and gentle...like a REAL girl D:

-in speech and actions

edit:+ 1= 5. NOT BE STUBBORN

-listen more and not be so opinionated

- listen to you...try not to go against you

come on annna....2011 is almost here.. you can do this...

konfirmisi

such a confirmation.not at all that coincidental.that's how i feel anyhow.decisions are important things.and it takes a lot of motivation to make the right one.i decided this morning for the reason that it is the right thing to do.and the word at night seals the deal.it's wonderful the way He moves our stubborn,fearful and indecisive hearts to tread on the right path. not an easy journey to make.i know that.i do hope you continue to motivate and encourage me.but if you don't, i'll be okay too.i just have to remember who i am doing this for.

for the yous and the mes

the us' ...the wes.

for the what- could- bes.

for the what-i'd-like-it-to-bes

for all that's going to be

what i want

it's interesting how words can turn someone a full 180 .

makes me doubt myself, my thoughts, my stand.

makes me wonder what I want

what i think i want

what i should want.

it's interesting how much hope one can put into the uncertain and the unseen

and lose hope in the what was and what used to be.

it shouldn't be about the who.

just the what.

for now.

verdict: i want what's right,

especially for right now.

inside me,i tremble...

“i shake inside with hurt and uncertainty. when will i be right? what is right? what is right for right now?”