question...

you intrigue me and i cannot fathom why.

a good song

a good song is one that drowns you in a moment so good that you never want to get out of it, and you feel dread when it ends

eminemish mode (please forgive if fails...and SHhhhh)

it's like the things you do

they drive me nuts

you say "i'm protecting you"

but you don't trust

the way i'm telling you

yeah i'm fine on my own

now leave me alone

i'mma hide my own bones

and whatever i do

has nuts to do with you

yea you say " i care"

but you obsess

like you think the whole world is

only yours to possess

you say it like i belong to you

like a puppet on voodoo

everything you say i do

no chance to think for myself

i'm up on the high shelf

can't think, can't talk

whenever you say, i'll walk

i'm barely human, not anymore

this is how'd you like to see me

sprawled all over the floor

i'm breaking down

my tears don't make a sound

what i say don't mean a thing

and my lips are merely whispering

yes i loved you, my heart was yours

but you could never ever see pass all the flaws

the scars , the bleeding, you're insecure

you think my mistakes are gonna make a round 4

your meddling bells go off in your head

you never think, you never cared

you just wanted what you thought you never had

but all you needed had given till she was dead

there's really nothing left , in reality

but somehow , you're still what i wanna see

somehow still with you i wanna be

it's like i'm stupid, and my brains on the freeze

it's like my heart is disconnected

what common sense?

what wrong? oh heck it

no logic bends, no conscience beckons

it's like a hearts on a slip-and-slide

it's like i'm just waiting for it to fry

what's in it for me?

real love?a fantasy?

you wanted the world i put it in your hand

but in the end it was just a freaking test

you made my heart an ugly mess

you pushed the limits

pressed the buttons

and then you left

just a test drive car

that you drove so far

that you spun all the way

then simply returned the key

cuz the colour wasn't the shade you that you wanted

you had your run and now you decide that you don't want it

and you're like,"here have it back, i don't like it anymore, it's not good enough for me, i think i deserve more"

more to push around

more to push down

more to step on

more to control

more to say "no no, you can't go just because i said so"

like a momma, just with drama but you won't let go

ASHDFbg

:: men or more like, males, are such dramatic emotional creatures....amazing how far the male species has evolved..

::sometimes my life truly is Drama 101...currently in season 5::

in case i forget

ah ge dais, blueberry, look at my phone...i mean watch... don't paiseh...how cans...

hurms....

megan fox is the hots in the the Rihanna and Eminem collab.... awesome hots....

and i was like wha..?

so...the other day in class i was feeling really sleepy. i was scouting for a suitable place to nap and just when i found it.... i was awaken slightly by my classmate saying ," i have NO BALLS!" complete with cupping gestures...

everything order nothing in but

so stuff that has happened : let's work backwards:

- new hair,shorter,coloured ,significance? first time dying :P never did anything bigger than highlighting....and its shorter....quite welcoming healthier hair. Thanks Rebekah :D

- there are benefits to constantly staying online on Fb...why? refer to the above

-D. Foo has once again failed to belanja me McD, even though he owed me and i was dying of hunger and fulfilled his wish to be trasnported there

- managed to redownload Missy Higgins, Joshua Radin, Regina Spektor and Maps thanks to cravings and finding people who appreciate them too

-Involved in a 15-hour dance marathon...and we made it into the Malaysian Book of records. :) dance-chge-run-runback-change-dance ...wash rinse repeat

-fear, apprehension, reconciliation... taking the first step... doing the right thing... well at least attempting la.

-awesome shrooms....fried and spiced D: *droolicious*

-missing the grads :( missed the Melakans...big oops for me...

-von von got me Octupai...so now Octina has a FREN! who is the same colour as MEOW! yay!

-was excited for his arrival, and depressed for his leave... confused in his aftermath. still thinking and taking things slow.

-PorkBurgeru! NINJA NINJA JOE!!

-jammingz which i failz....but loved the company :) and ze sing-k :)

-managed to watch Jangan Pandang Belakang....during which water fountaining and kitchen flooding occurred,leading to mass moping and drying...

-managed to Phobia 2... couldnt help but take in the beautiful imagery, the lighting, the angles, the treatment....breathtaking.... Thanks kimYEW! and nice meeting new people :)

-melaka : usual rifts where you can just nvr win... butter chicken and spenis...

-bumper falling off halfway hope...genius i know...

-yellowcab awesomeness, lookout point gilaness.... realising victor and stephen and so clonelikely cute, deric stomping up a burp...

-proud mom of a harddisk....finalllyyyy...

-berbatiks.... lotsa fun fun fun....

- good friends at first with ugly endings and threads left hanging...some people can't man up and tell the truth...

- can't sleep well anymore,can hardly nap :( jolted awake most of the time :(

-thanks to stephgoh... i meltz...meltziesssss

-of bades and dubes

-of inspesi and names... Salt and reviews and hectic jams... despicable me rush...saucers and panties tesla secrets

-odd cows and cow songs

-Half Life 2 Ost Nostalgia

- my hometownmyhometownOHiforgotYOngTAUFU- deliberate8pieces+2 leeched and cheeeken+raice

-felt pretty now and then....constant self esteem boost no matter what happens.

-metric on radio-squealy squeal squeal! 65%stranger to menjadi ah mat...but tankiu! since i su smart no purse

-of good old nyonya food...how to let goooo hoowwwww

-catholic death anniversary + awesome food

-3 movies in a day mmmmmm.......eye-burn

...that's about all i can recollect for now...